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Dreams of despair

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AlbumOriginalName: aws_desp.xm Imported: 2022-09-24 (TERN-Sept2022-06).
Tracker TypeFasttracker
Duration05:59
Total plays233
Added2022-10-25 17:39:59
Track ID#13169
Integrity
MD5
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SHA-1
2d906dd549db6bd8c769334c59ddfec3ec0e11d9
SHA-256
8b403d6e1c2ee12b4856528d51931bf996bf86ab44bcc2230dfd238b8bb1ab2e
SHA-384
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About the artist Awesome  View all tracks ›

★★★★★ (12 votes)

Awesome's real name is Victor Vergara. He describes himself like this:"I have started my own Awezoom Studios website like 5 times since I lost my former url www.awezoom.com some years ago. Since then, I've thought many times about making just a simple space where people could get and listen to my whole music at once.I was born in Valencia, Spain in 1978. My family has always been really poor, but during a couple of years, my parents got some extra money and they were able to get me a computer.For many years I enjoyed learning everything related to computer creation, as image generation, drawing, animation, video edition and fx, music or whatever you could do with just a computer. When trackers appearead it was a shock to me, since a new world opened in front of my eyes. Even with no money to get a Midi Keyboard I was able to express myself through music with just my PC Keyboard and a Sound Blaster.Me and some friends at Euskal Party 5I learned the basics of tracking with Mod Editor 1.0, 669 Composer and Scream Tracker 3, but Fast Tracker 2 was revolutionary to me. I spent hundreds, thousands of hours learning, composing, arranging and creating music with Triton's free software.In 1995-98 I had all the free time in the world, and I spent it tracking. I created dozens of songs, including some of my favorite songs up to date. As a self-learner, I focused on composing all sorts of music, but always with my touch on it, and also the styles of music I like. During those years, with my discovery of Internet at University, I started to spread my music everywhere. They were my 'golden years' as a tracker.During those years I entered all music competitions I could, being quite successful in most of them. I won several 1st and 2nd prices in the Euskal Parties between 1998-2001, and even ranked #2nd at Music Contest 6, which was a Worldwide music contest amongst trackers, with my song "News-o-tronik".I made the graphics for Skale TrackerThen, my career as a professional graphic designer started. My music passion became less important to me. In fact I felt quite well about it since during those years I received letters from fans all around the world saying all sorts of great things about my work, so, in some way, I just thought I had achieved what I wanted with my music: My music had been listened by lots of people, and most of them liked it so much. I felt really happy and satisfied about that, so I focused on my next step: My career as a designer.I left tracking in one corner for years until Reason appeared. To me it was a discovery similar to Fast Tracker 2. It gave me back the passion I had lost time ago and started to compose again. In the beginning I started to remix some of my best songs to make them sound professional, but then I got some new songs that you can find here.Unfortunately I'm not a kid anymore, so I can't put so much time into music anymore, that's made most of my Reason songs remain unfinished (despite many of them require are quite advanced), but anyways I'm putting here many of them for you to enjoy it. Maybe if this web gets popular enough I feel encouraged to finish all those songs for you all."

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Additional data from ModArchive

Title on ModArchive "Dreams of despair"
Credited on ModArchive Awesome
Module format XM
File size 1.76MB
Added to ModArchive Wed 9th Feb 2000
ModArchive rating 9 / 10

Sample & instrument names

"Dreams of Despair  "

Composed and tracked
             by
  -  Victor Vergara  -
 (Awesome / Wild Bits)
   (C)opyright 1997
  All rights reserved.
----------------------
Awesome & Wild Bits
World Headquarters :
Blastersound BBS!!!!

+34 - 58 - 293 - 583
- Look for Dawn
          music disk -
----------------------
Awesome proffessional
         Art Studio
- Music and graphics -
     (96) 359 67 44
" Vicverlu_inf.upv.es"
  C/Montemayor 1,5
Xirivella (Valencia)
        46950 Spain.
Victor(Awesome)Vergara
 /Wild Bits/ Exelweiss
Contact for games
music, sfx or gfx
or just to be a friend
like all of these :
(in no order)
Naiad, Madtronik, Sex,
Impression, Corsario,
Wing Extrem, Asmatic
of the Wild Bits.
Sergio DJ, Royer and
MrMX of Nova.
Noisyman, Mikel
of Iguana
Smash!, Wonder of Quad
Slaanesh of CShade
JCL of Unknown
Skaven & Purple Motion
of Future Crew
Spock (O. Portela)
Miguel of Passengers
Lizardking of Triton
Dragon and Crom of
the Spanish Lords
Wally, Astaroth, Hgh
and Evelred of
The lords of the bits
DJKIKE /TheBanner
Exelweiss, COM2,Iguana
TLOTB, ART, and
specially to you, 'cos
you must be tired of
so many names...

Enjoy this magical
music piece.

A great kiss to Aurora
----------------------
Well. I must recognise
that I'm really proud
with this song.In fact
is the best module
I've ever heard. Maybe
you don't like it, but
...well. I love this
music. Just enjoy it.

More or less twenty
hours to complete the
track.

Don't modify.
Don't use without my
permission.
This is copyrighted by
the author.
All rights reserved.
(C) 1997 November

Please, send me any
kind of comments.
Positive or negative
it's the same.

And about the samples.
Well many of them were
handled by me after
extrating them from
Future Music sampleCDs
others are from many
authors.

Thanx to you if you
sampled them.
This music wouldn't
be the same without
all of them.

Signed : Awesome.
The Fast Tracker Lord.
  ehhhee... it's joke!
_ heretic
_ korg (polysix)
#0028

24 khz
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Data from modarchive.org, last checked 2026-08-25 16:33:09.

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Waveform of Dreams of despair by Awesome, left channel above, right channel below: level in dB against time, 6:00 long. Open the waveform at full size (opens in a new tab)
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6:00
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134 BPM
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−15.1 LUFS
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Loudness range The distance between the quiet passages and the loud ones, in LU (1 LU is 1 dB). A small number means an even, compressed sound - good in a car or on a phone. A large number means big swings between soft and loud.
3.0 LU
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DR 11
10.6 dB · moderately dynamic
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−17.6 dBFS
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−17.3 dBFS
average (RMS) over the whole file
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0.30 dB
balanced
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−13.1 dB
ordinary stereo
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No

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album The album or collection the file says it belongs to. Stations and encoders sometimes use this field for notes of their own.
OriginalName: aws_desp.xm Imported: 2022-09-24 (TERN-Sept2022-06).
comment A free note somebody left inside the file.
"Dreams of Despair " Composed and tracked by - Victor Vergara - (Awesome / Wild Bits) (C)opyright 1997 All rights reserved. ---------------------- Awesome & Wild Bits World Headquarters : Blastersound BBS!!!! +34 - 58 - 293 - 583 - Look for Dawn music disk - ---------------------- Awesome proffessional Art Studio - Music and graphics - (96) 359 67 44 " Vicverlu@inf.upv.es" C/Montemayor 1,5 Xirivella (Valencia) 46950 Spain. Victor(Awesom [...]
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'xm' tracked music file, made with 'FastTracker 2 or compatible', rendered with 'openmpt123 0.6.5 (libopenmpt 0.6.5+r17760, OpenMPT 1.30.06.00 https://source.openmpt.org/svn/openmpt/tags/libopenmpt-0.6.5@17760 (2022-08-21T11:52:55Z) clean)'
title The name of the recording, as it is written inside the file.
Dreams of despair
artist Who made or performs the recording, as it is written inside the file.
Awesome
encoder The program that made the mp3 file.
Lavf62.19.101

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